I haven't played this week. I probably won't have time until Thursday, and that will likely be doubles at Live Oak Brewing again.

I started doing some mowing and weed-eating for COTO. We've also had some staff turnover at Mint as well, which has affected how much time I dedicate to playing.

There's a part of me that is really enjoyed taking back some of my old roles. Then there's the part that goes back to where I was mentally last summer.

Just a little checked out.

Disc Golf is hard after all.

I can't be soft. 

I have to make decisions and live with them.

Just like when I play golf. 

Be disciplined dude.

Lately I've been thinking about a memorable moment for me from Junior high.

The coach wanted me to play Quarterback.

I didn't want to, because that meant I had to be vocal. I had to lead.

It wasn't who I was. I had a lot of anxiety.

I wasn't confident.

I loved throw the football. I actually loved playing quarterback. I just didn't like having to tell people what to do.

I've been thinking about how that moment relates to my current role in the general Austin community.

How much different I am from when I was in junior high.

How confident I am when I speak and make decisions.

A role I can't just run from because it's uncomfortable at times.

I'm also enjoying just blending in again.

I'm not focused at all on Majors or DGPT events anymore.

I don't have a course to build.

I wake up and and I do just Mint.

I've helped start the Central Texas Disc Golf Alliance with some colleagues.

I'm also getting to work a lot closer with Guy than I have in years. We're communicating on a whole new level and it's been a lot of fun.

We're planning more and more stuff to do just at Sprinkle too. Things to make this course the hub it needs to be. Make it more sustainable for all the businesses on the property.

Disc Golf gave me all this experience and this set of skills to do all of that.

Disc Golf made me confident.

It's why I write a blog. 

And make really bad jokes on social media.

Because I was willing to learn how to golf.

Willing to put myself our there. Comfortable with who I am and my own personal ego.

I found myself willing to lead even if you didn't think I needed to be.

I know how to motivate myself.

Remind myself of my focus.

I know when to shut my mouth and lead by example.

Disc Golf is hard, and I have to love that.

Until tomorrow.